Sunday, November 21, 2010

In pain...

There has been a lot of thing appearing in my life.  I wish for a change, I don't want to keep quiet, I want my own life,  I want back my wish to be done, I have sacrifice a lot of myself.  All I want is to let you know that for you to understand what I want or wish.  My feeling of a cool pail of cold water being pour on me and keeping myself in a cool and dark room.  The tears on my eye... can't stop it... why...

Deep in my heart, I'm suffering, knowing that myself have lost the confidence on you.
On the outside, I'm living, pretending in front of you that I trust and care for you
But within 1 second, 1 min, you have made my day to the tired and sick of you..


I do know what have you done for me and I do appreciate it. Thank you so much but things have to move, I can't stand still at one spot forever, I will do something, I will change, I will do a lot of thing to myself which I have lost of not doing it when I know you.  You can say I am greedy and materialistic but I know I am not, I just want to own those thing that I wish stop doing it for the past years.  So, do myself did anything wrong?
 
You'll never understand why I hurt so much,
because you're not the one who is crying,

you're not the one who is left behind,

you're not the one who loved too much,

and you're not the one who is lost the wish to come true... 
The cruel and hate to you....will never forget and forgive...

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Bangkok Trip (Part 1)


I know that this will be a very late post but yet I still want to post to share my experience during my visit to Bangkok. This is my very first trip to Bangkok and lucky me that this was send by my company for Fam Trip by Starwood Group.


I started off my blog today with my very first trip to Bangkok Trip from 25th - 30th March 2010... Yup...yup... doing the red shirt protest time.... working trip.

Day 1 of my arrival at Suvarnabhumi Airport and surprise where I found out at this point of time there is a lot of people still like to travelling to Bangkok. Upon arrival the whole Fam Group was greeted by Plaza Athenee Hotel Bangkok representative and we board a bus to the hotel for the 1st inspection whis is about 30 minutes journey by passing 2 tolls. Along the highways I can see a lot of high range of cars driving on the road.
 
Tiring day upon arrival however we feel the warm welcome from all the staff from Plaza Athenee Hotel Bangkok with a special welcome drinkz and is super nice...


Then, we went for a round of hotel inspection of Plaza Athenee Hotel Bangkok of the rooms, facilities, function rooms and the outlets.

Then we proceed with our lunch at a Italian Restaurant which serve italian cuisine with the super yummy delicious main course, dessert etc. The visit of the hotel ended with a lucky draw gift from the Starwood Group where I have got for myself a 2 nights stay at Sheraton Krabi Resort. (p/s going to use this for my holiday trip in October). What a happy lunch for me...

Leaving for the next destination is to check in at the Royal Orchid Sheraton Hotel Tower Bangkok. Upon arrival we have been greeted by all the lovely staff from Royal Orchid Sheraton with a welcome drink (opss... forget to take photo coz too tired) then we have check-in to our room individually.


Finally, I have got a chance to check-in my room and rest... This is the room that I am staying 'Deluxe Riverview' overlooking the view of Chao Phraya River.

Deluxe Riverview overlooking the Chao Phraya River




Zzzzz.... Woke up in the evening proceed for the Starwood Expo where I have meet quiet a few of the hotelier from Thailand, Indonesia, China during their Expo in Kuala Lumpur.



Later on ended my day off earlier as I was not feeling well and slept early...

1st Wish - Done...

Finally after the hard patient & consideration & calculation... I have own my very first DSLR Camera. 

Yes, yes, yes I want to learn to take nice & unique photos.  At first I was a bit lost where to start to learn.  But finally to start on with getting along with the camera function.

My very first shot outdoor trip is a day trip to Seremban with my hubby & my lil girl.   Not much of photos taken but have share out in my Facebook. 



Looking forward for my trip to snap more... Stay tune...will try to post out soon.... 

Iphone or Ipod Touch

With the advance technology in IT... Everyone was chasing for the most advance technology in the market...IPhone4



Been wishing to own an IPOD Touch since some ages ago but yet something that I think have stopped me from that.  Well, it doesn't even stop me from thinking to own an IPOD Touch....


Lately, there is a few of my closed colleague own the IPhone4.  As I realize that IPhone4 is the toppest model in Malaysia now.  Everywhere you go people will talk about IPhone 4.  Where you go it? How long you will wait? What are the package that you have sign up? How long is the package? But seldom heard people will compare the difference between between IPhone4 vs IPod Touch except they have make calls.

Now it even lure me whether to own a IPhone4 iso IPod Touch.  Should I or Not?

Friday, August 6, 2010

What happened When a boy doesn't love the girl who loves him so much?

What happened when a boy doesn't love the girl who loves him so much?
I don't know why I blog this but have you been wondering for the answer what will happen when a boy doesn't love a girl who loves him so much.

Ting ting... first of all for the girl out there... WAKE UP.... if a the boy/man don't love you... don't waste your time on him...

How can you realize that you are one of the girl who love the guy more than he love you?

Scenario 1: There are time that you have noticed him when you are standing and talking with a friend and you will always think that he noticed you... actually is not as this is just your imagination of yourself. The fact is you he looked at you at about the same time you saw him and your eyes met just for a few seconds only and then you looked away. Then, when you looked back up, he is talking with someone. In you mind, you must be thiking, is he watching you as you mingled? or just the destiny that both your eyes met for that few second.

Scenario 2: Love is blind. Always never think of any other things of yourself only him. When a guy treat you good then you will tend to think he have the feeling for you. Actually not... it could be either he want to have sex (one night stand) or just play around with you when he feel bored or alone. He don't called you that often, always tell you he want to concentrate on his career or studies, unwilling to disclose to friend & families on your relationship with him, always find some topic to chat with him unfortunately he is actually not interested...

scenario 3: Try to get his attention by doing something or talking to someone who is standing / sitting near to him. Always be the 1st one to sitting near him. More caring to him by voluntery yourself to do anything for him without him requesting for anyone to do.

Scenario 4: always pretend to be busy with your own stuffs or acting as natural as you can but eventually you keep your earings listening to what he is talking to someone else. When the timing and topic is right, you can add in your own comments with him

Scenario 5 : Always like to fight with him coz you will always have the feeling of understanding his needs more.

Scenario 6: Pretend to be friend with his girlfriend/wife so that you can know better his personal life style at home which you don't have a chance right by his side all the time.
Scenario 7: Always show off you capability in your work so that you will catch him attention on you by setting you a good example to others.
How can you tell if a guy likes you or is interested?
1. He likes you if he tells a mutual friend that he wants to know more about you, or he asks other people who you are and where you're from. He is trying to act like he's "just asking" but his questions indicate more than a casual interest. And when he tells someone that he finds you attractive, he probably knows that it will get back to you. He's hoping it does.
2. The look he gives you a look that betrays his calm exterior. Even though he is across the room, "that look" he has says it all. It is sweeping, from your head to your toes, and then his eyes linger on yours. You think you notice the beginning of a tentative smile.
3. The conversation.. Does he like you? When he manages to get close enough to you, to ask you questions, he is interested. He appears to be listening and responds to what you say. He's moving in to the ultimate question, which is: "Are you seeing anyone." He would only ask this question if he wanted to date you, and he hopes the answer is "No." Never ever wear a ring in public. When a guy is across the room, he cannot tell which finger it is on and he may assume incorrectly that you are taken. If he doesn't ask you the question of whether or not you are attached, he may ask someone whom you both know.
4. He appears unexpectedly... He likes you a lot if he shows up out of nowhere. He can only do that if he has been asking people about your schedule, or he has been paying attention to where you are going and at what time. His face may turn red when he sees you. A sudden, "Oh, hi," is his way of saying, "I don't want to seem obvious, but I am interested in you." If you feel the same way, do not act shy. Stop and talk to him.
5. EVERYONE likes you... Is he interested? When you are well liked and a happy person, why wouldn't he like you? Of course he does. If you don't have a great life, however, now is your time to start working on one. Take a look at your career possibilities, body image, future, plans, and resources. You may be naturally talented at something, but it won't matter unless you work on your strengths. Misused or unused talents fade away. School and training do not.These are the five signs that he is interested and he is on the verge of asking you out. Make it easy for him and be friendly.
So for those girls who have not wake up... It is silly to wait for a guy to love you back when your love to him more. Please always don't think that 'I'm just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love me'...

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

What is the feeling of falling in love??? Heartbreak???

Have you ever wonder and think back what is the feeling of falling in love...
Well, this must start with... Once upon a time....
While I was driving to work this morning, as usual I will listen to 'Mixfm Breakfast Show'. However, the topic for today is kinda interesting. What is the feeling of falling in Love? Heartbreak?
Having the feeling of 'in love' is the greatest things. You wouldn't know how to describe it but is the happiest moment in your life. Sometimes, I would think is how good if this kind of feelings will be remain forever till the death... silly of me. From my thinking is that the longer you are married... the 'in love' feeling is getting lesser or slowly faded away and I was wondering why? Is it too much time together or too less privacy time together.
Whenever I see those couple together and sometimes I would recall back my feelings that where once upon a time I was once like them as the feeling of seeing him is so much and can't really wait for the weekend to spend more time with him. Then follow by the lovely message and missing kinda feeling... well hard to describe but happiness...
Heartbreak is the most painful thing in everyone of us this is especially if you love him more than he loves you. Having scarifice the love of him and out of sudden break-off which the most painful thing in our heart.
Well, god is very fair to everyone of us... Some of us will encounter the happiness and painfulness. Myself always hope that to remain the happiness feeling in my life forever...

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Life after 30's....

What have change you in your life after the age of 30's years old?

Sometimes I would feel bored with everything, how shall I imaging it that hard for me to explain here.

#1 No more mood to go Party partyzzz

#2 Less movie outing

#3 Less spending for myself... more spending for kids & family

#4 Gain weight more... less exercise

#5 Less sleeping time... sometimes can't sleep at night,,, wondering why

#6 Too much thing to think....

#7 Less holiday tripzz...

#8 maybe sometimes lazy to work

#9 what else... anyone can share

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Happy Mother's Day

This is my 5th year celebrating as a mother in mother's day... Lovely girl that I have with her cheeky smile that substitute with all the yelling, scolding, angry towards her sometimes naughtiness and stubborn. But we do have hidden fun when we are together.

Seeing her growing up that makes me even sometimes telling myself... I am trying to get all the preciouse time with her more as one thing that I know she is sharing the same series with me 'Friends' and both of us like music too...

Can't wait for the time when she ask 'Mom, let's go for shopping' hahaha.. Both of us wearing denims with t-shirt walking with our lovely handbangs and sandals and off to shopping & movies...
Happy Mothers Day to all Lovely, Sweety & Caring Mummies in the rest of the World.
Lastly, to my beloved mom... Happy Mothers Day.
Thanks for all the caring towards us and my lil girl.

Friday, April 23, 2010